Love me ; appreciate me 

Used to be your sillygirl. 

I guess i just need some drinking session to cheer me up and i guess it does. 

Thanks people for being there for me , and care for me. 

And on that day itself i knew another thing that shocked me, hais.
 things won't end like that if i never let go of you.
Have been a goodgirl and didn't went clubbing for the past 3 weeks, wanted to go and relax, but nobody's going. I'm still not used to 5.5 days work and hopefully god will help me get used to it.
Going to sleep now , going to wake up at 650am, ohmygoodness, it's super early.

Everything ended again, it has been the third time already. 

I've been trying for 3 times , and so do you. 

Given you the third chance but you ended all these because of your own reason.

To you , i might not be the girl you want, or maybe you just treat me as something else. 

But i was confused , if you say you treat me as something else but why you ask me to give you another chance if everything start over again.  

Everything from you , i will remember and memories are going to keep inside my mind & heart.

I promise you i won't be crying , it is a lie to you.

The moment you push me away, i know you are going to be push me away forever.

The moment i leave the cab , my tears started to drop.

I really cannot imagine you leaving me for good , and never ever come back anymore.  

I promise you i will study hard , i promise i will. 

Tell me how to not miss you , how not to love you , how not to think of you. 

It's going to be tough for me to forget you, really.

 I'm always telling my little brother that he's always cute last time but not now.

Le lady

 Mummy love

 Have a blissfully marriage Mr Wong & Mrs Wong

 Shiya

 Rebecca & Shiya

 With Two Mummies

 Qing Hui 

Ladies

Finally update my blog, it's going to rot if i don't update. 

Attended Jav & Steph's wedding on last weekend, saw lots of secondary school friends but didn't manage to take a lot of pictures together, but lastly wish Mr & Mrs Wong Blissfully Marriage & 白头皆老. Thanks old man for sending me home too. Things between us has goes back to the past, cherish it. Exams are around the corner and i'm officially unemployed, hunting for jobs and hopefully i could get a job fast. Accounting will be the first paper and i'm going to mug hard, all the best. Off to study and miss you (:

Pictures everywhere

Back from blogging, was always enjoying my nightlife and club life with cliques but somehow when i saw you and feel your presence around , i don't have the mood to club and enjoy anymore. Everywhere i goes, i will saw you and will always think of us again. I want to enjoy but i can't, feel so stress but with my cliques around i did enjoy at least a bit.  

I was wondering do you still miss me, do you still love me and etc. 

I know i was silly and foolish thinking all these , but will still wonder do all these happens. 

Seeing you drunk makes me feel so heart pain, don't know what will happen to you & etc. 

But glad that you are able to takecare of yourself. 

Goodbye everything...

Everything just ended. I always thought that after we had decided to start afresh again will be much more better, but i guess all these are only my thoughts but not yours.  After meeting you , you just tell me that i think i can't try anymore. we are too different. After seeing your text , i don't know how to react and my tears just dropped. By typing this post, my tears are dropping and i really can't describe how hurts it is.

谢谢你曾经爱过我，谢谢你曾经让我爱你

谢谢你曾经疼国我，谢谢你曾经让我疼你

谢谢你曾经给我的回忆，那些回忆是最完美的

I won't forget those memories you gave me and i won't change all those things in my phone.

I will always remember those conversion we used to have, those nights we used to talk until morning.

Those memories are the best isn't it? Thanks for trying , and i know this time round i can't force you to change anymore. Choose to let you forget everything is because i know you're tired of trying or maybe you don't wish to try anymore. Thanks for appreciating my effort to change into a better girl, but i guess i'm not the ideal girl you want. 

好好分開應要淡忘　你找到你伴侶 

重臨舊情境　我卻哭得出眼淚 

時常在聯想　你會溫馨的抱她午睡 

然而自己現在沒任何權利　再抱怨一句 

我再沒勇氣向你講舊時　沒有勇氣相愛另一次 

為你將睡眠忘記　通宵傾談但已經頓成往事 

還是記起　無道理的對罵是年紀小的不智 

今天你能忘記　只得我懷念多麼諷刺 

輾轉反側將愛活埋　要把你印象減退 

重提舊人物　我卻開心得帶恐懼 

年月是流水　我也相識一個成長伴侶 

殘酷或許是對象面形容貌　也似你少許 

我再沒勇氣向你講舊時　沒有勇氣相愛另一次 

為你將睡眠忘記　通宵傾談但已經頓成往事 

還是記起　無道理的對罵是年紀小的不智 

今天你能忘記　只得我懷念多麼諷刺 

如何逃避這戀愛故事　仍然說得多細緻 

重覆的震撼　餘震未停止 

我再沒勇氣向你講舊時　沒有勇氣相愛另一次 

為你將睡眠忘記　通宵傾談但已經頓成往事 

還是記起　無道理的對罵是年紀小的不智 

今天再回頭看　這一個男孩子 

我怕面對你說到生活時　後悔過往的幼稚爭議 

沒你的動人時節　喧譁歡騰亦已經並無意義 

閒話到此　遺憾到此結論是回憶總要到此 

雖則你難忘記　這戀愛遺物終需棄置

再好好過日子

I am always thinking of moving forward with you, but things doesn't turn out this way. I know you need time to think through all these , and you are having exams now , i don't wish to disturb you for this time period as it is critical for you. Once you told me about your previous paper, i know that i shouldn't have disturb you that much and letting you focus on your studies first.

Somehow trust only builds up when times goes by, but i just need you to trust me just abit, even it is 0.01 percent i am happy enough. Things like looking at my phone , is not because i hide things from you is because i need my privacy somehow. Texts and what apps from friends you will intend to look at it and suspect me from there.


From the beginning , i have been honest to you but you are always giving me a suspecting attitude and i  guess things are not that way at all. If you really love someone, you won't have judge the person and mind about her past. I know somehow i shouldn't change for someone but for myself, i know i am being silly but i just need someone to appreciate my change and cherish me, isn't hard for you to do? Not asking you to move forward with me , but for someone i love i am willingly to change and become a better person. No one changes me from the past , blame myself not being the past-tense me and not being mature enough for you , and not being prefect for you too. As for smoking , i know it's hard for you to believe me , and we have been quarreling about this for times. Had Been telling you the truth , and yet you're not believing me , what else i can do?


 Actions speak louder words , i know that! I really did that , but yet you're still suspecting me.
 You're not other guys that i used to know, cause the feeling is different, maybe you will say it is some skills that i used to use on other guys that now I'm using on you. If you think so, i can tell you i am not faking all these, is from my heart alrights.


I got friends that know their boyfriend from club and they're together now. I believe in fate, does you? Egoist is something that is strong in you and i can't change it from you. I just have to accept that and i can't deny that i miss you badly. I misses those times we used to chat until morning , and doesn't want to sleep, and those memories are always inside my mind.


I am always trying my best not to contact you during this period of time , but i really miss you alot.
I'm always looking forward to our shopping day , but i guess it won't happen anymore right?

Are you willingly to try again?

Didn't expect all these things to end so quickly. 

Didn't expect all these things to stop here and not moving forward.

Tears are dropping yet i can't bear to leave. 

Will everything just ended like that and all those memories are only kept inside my heart?

I know i am not a prefect girl , but no one is prefect and i guess you had made your decision. 

I am not that girl you wanted at all. Sorry for not being prefect , sorry for loving you so deeply.

I'm sorry for changing all my bad habits for you, trying to be a girl that you wanted. 

Fate is playing on us , and i guess i'm not good enough for you.

I will miss you , and all i hope is things will get better. 

Sillyfatpig, you're missed & loved by me. 

I need time to heal everything , i just want to be the little girl of yours. 

 Love 

My love , my precious.